breathtaking selfishness

I just wanted to let you know that you take my breath away
simply unbelievable
your mentality beyond description
effortlessly hideous
your stench is undeniable
you are so powerful
the sound of your voice permeates a fresh wind of arrogance
your unassuming nature is blinded by the ugliness of your ways
I disgust you. you repulse me
you are absolutely breathtaking

your uncanny ability to thoroughly contemplate all things uniquely you
your uncanny ability to reject the philosophies that make you uniquely you
so systematic are your thoughts
so methodical are your procedures
a true disciplinarian. everything under your control
dislodge and condemn at your command
hate and despise at your command

I lose my breath at the thought of you
at the thought of myself

my knees are black because i realize that sometimes i don't even recognize myself